kita

biarkan bisu yang menjadi saksi

yang tak kan mencela ketika kita mulai mencinta

biarkan tenang tak mengusik damai

dari memori yang terangkai bersama

biarkan sendu menjadi tempat mengadu

bahwa rasa kita memang pernah sama

bahwa rindu kita memang pernah membara

tanpa harus terucapkan

tanpa harus tersampaikan

karena cukup diam yang menjadi buktinya

Someday I'll run my own company :D

It’s about how happy I am, meeting people, analize their character and deal with their personality. So this is about joining an organization, run it and make its existence in its world. So what’s special..? For me, make an event from its organization. When we prepare the event far away, lots meeting, lots fighting, anger, hurry, panic and lots of people expression here, something that you’ll gonna miss it someday.

I just love those things, I feel that this is my field, handling health people, not sick people :p (whereas I’m a general practitioner wanna be hahaa).

But the awful thing about an organization (not a company) you can fire people :p, you have to use your human resources properly, you have to give the desk job to the right person and you have to make it sure that the person whom you give the responsibilities can do it well, at least almost :D

And the worse is, sometimes you will be the information center of the people, everyone will ask you about anything, about making decision which sometimes you think it’s silly :p, but you know as the center point of the organization, people surrounds you have high expectation about you, and sometimes it sucks hahaa. But its ok when you love it, you can deal with it:D

Learning about leadership in an organization will make you a great leader. The situation will force you to think outside the box and make you learn how to make the best use of your limited human resource properly, and trust me sometimes it will ruin your day hahaa. So it can be a basic knowledge of making your own company, whereas handling people and knowing their each person skill is the main important ability of a leader in a company.

So with these basic knowledge, which is I get since I was 14 years old and now I am 24 years old, is enough for me for trying to build a company :D

So what’s company? Maybe a small company in clothing field would be nice, like what I’m trying to run it now :D, just wish me luck, I can make it bigger and I will say, yeay I run my own company :D

Alhamdulillah Allah gives me amanah to join some organization, thx DP, PRATA, CIMSA, SIMPO 178. It’s great experience having you all in my life J

Missing You

so what's new?

nothing, just some rubbish that i have to throw on its place

a missing thing

missing a lost memory

missing a best laugh

missing a crunchy debate

missing a great mind talking

missing a smart brainstorming

missing the small meaningful thing that I used to have

yes, i'm missing the best moment in my life with you

yes, with you pals

now, we separate in other world, other business, other stories

never be the same again

but when we meet, I hope we are not changing

my own idealism in question mark

hidup dengan idealisme masa muda? bisakah? kadang semua hanya menjadi omongan lalu, ketika umur, tuntutan hidup, realitas datang seiring banyak permintaan yang akan datang dari segala pihak, dan akhirnya berdiam diri tanpa melakukan apapun menjadi pilihan akhir

seperti dialog tadi sore, si babe "kamu sekolah lagi ya, bla bla bla bla bla..." dan saya hanya terdiam sambil bergumam dalam hati "sampai kapan saya harus diarahkan untuk A, B maupun C, bisa ga sih saya hidup dengan pilihan saya sendiri? hidup dengan sedikit idealisme saya?"

kalo membantah, bisa dikatain ga bersyukur juga, beruntung saya masih ada ortu yang bisa mengarahkan saya, tapi, nah loh masih pake tapi, artinya ga ikhlas juga kan kalo menjalani sesuatu. *galau deh jadinya ahahaayy

jadi rencananya, setelah saya GP pengennya nih, kalo belum dapet calon nih ya, hihihihi, mau mengabdi dulu, mau nunjukin rasa syukur saya dulu, PTT kek, ato jadi GP yg gratis dimana kek tanpa digaji gitu deh, kerja dulu juga kek, pokoknya kek kek kek yang lain, simpel kan idealisme saya, ga ribet, ga nyusahin, tapi dari kemaren dicekokinnya harus A harus B harus C.

I'm 24 years old lady Dad :D, why don't you let me to make my own choice, okey I know you love me, but I think I'm adult enough to live in my own idealism. So all the things that I can do right now is just writing, it's better than to debate those things :D

*sambil mencari jalan tengah

hello december :)

well this outfit is about fun fun fun :D when you just hang around with fellas or sit in the park with a book in your hand :) i called it purple hareem jumpsuit :D. Actually it's a hareem pants but, cause I'm not tall it became jumpsuit :p.

the glasses, it's about IDR 25k

I got that jumpsuit in the internet, the glasses in the market, the cardigan in the Solo Grand Mall and the shawl is my Mom's.

the cardigan is about IDR 70k

so, for me being fun in fashion is not about high price, it's about comfort and fit in you. how about yours? just share it with me :)

the late post :D

actually I'm still not in the mood to post anything about my daily style :p, but suddenly I find these pictures in my folder :D so here's the review.

this was my hi-school mate's wedding party in October 2011. it's just some kind of reunion, cos some of us had gone out of the town to get their carrier. most of them were in Jakarta, the capital city of this country. We met, we talked, we chat, we laughed together.

here's the dress, these were traditional dress in my country, it's called Kebaya, but most of us made it modificated,,and then people called it modern kebaya :)

some of us wore modern kebaya

they are my besties :)

we are beautiful chic rite :P

and this is what I wore :D

all these stuff are belong to my mom :D

 my mom helped me a lot, she put the hijab in my head and picked the dress for me.

so here there are, sorry for bad pictures, i took those with my BB :D

Surat Untuk Pram

apakah setiap alasan yang kau kemukakan aku harus terima...?
menerimamu menjadi suatu anugerah yang ternyata adalah musibah ketika kau coba hancurkan aku dengan nada nada melodi indah yang kau petikkan melalui gitarmu...?
apakah aku harus menjadi permisif ketika kau coba mencari kehangatan genggaman dari wanita yang terlalu indah dibanding aku itu...?
apakah aku harus menjadi pemaaf dengan mengijinkan kamu berdua dengannya untuk sekedar mencoba menanamkan benihmu padanya,,karena aku tak mampu....?

kau bilang aku hanya satu....
kau bilang aku tak tergantikan....
kau bilang kau selamanya hanya denganku....

tapi....
kau menipuku
kau melukaiku
kau menikamku

kau menemuinya di belakangku seolah aku buta dan tak tahu menahu tentang itu
kau bersamanya seolah aku tak pernah ada dalam hidupmu
kau menghubunginya di saat aku makan malam denganmu


selalu ada dia diantara aku dan kamu

mungkin memang api cemburu membakarku
karena amarah yang kupendam
atas nama pengkhianatan yang kau lakukan


Pram,,,aku membencimu....


-Lelakimu satu satunya Setya-